Tuesday, April 01, 2014

For some reason I have been experiencing more panic attacks. I just want to be the best I can be. I have to forgive myself for my failings and keep pushing forward. Breathe. Fear is so stupid. If I fail I will learn, it scares me still. I'm not trying to be perfect. I want to be good - really good at what I do. Just writing this made me feel so much better. Releasing that tension somehow. saying it. Letting go. I can do this.

Saturday, March 29, 2014

An elephant eye makes it's debut
through the jungle through and through
Fossils swirls with body impressions
Lava so hot it blurs
Frozen perfection still life green
Threaten me with heat and pain
An open mind cures
by by choosing free
And freedom opens up the realm of gain
I can't resist the refrain
Of "more of the same,"

Friday, March 28, 2014

New Moon
Life in turmoil
Life in perfect harmony
color
strength
the 
dance
the 
flippant splatters of random hatred
and random ambivelance
and random love
 spirited flight
now

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Full Moon
She is not a nice moon
other planets have moons
our moon has an aqueous
domination
our bodies are influenced
aware or not 
our behavior changes

Wednesday, March 26, 2014


Which do you like more? 1 or 2?

The frequency is on the bottom right
some hieroglyphics appear above
emotional washes dilute whatever is meant
The optimism of the entire left side is sensational
Not in the grand sense
just a feeling
but not
It touches
It says something
vague and reminiscent
water or something icky
It's just that beautiful bleary memory
marrying all sides in captivity
one personality
one

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

The beginning is
the beginning
this is the beginning
wonder what will happen
this is now
a drawing with OCD overtones
I want to tell you about the times
I can't stop drawing the same thing
It's an obseesion
Not meant to make a difference
only for me to release a strange fixation
The beginning is my hand
It's my compulsive
expression of repetition
everyday
we do what we do again
but without the idiosyncrasy of my hand
it WOULD be the same
but it's not
we are not
the same
we can 
do better
the beginning is
just that 

Monday, March 24, 2014


Dreamscape Heaven
my universe
I feel like laughing to the point of peeing my pants
this odd bright opportunity
red?
round?
infinite…
clean fresh unlimited hope
go forward
live
we have a pool to spin in
swirl vision
dreamscape heaven