For some reason I have been experiencing more panic attacks. I just want to be the best I can be. I have to forgive myself for my failings and keep pushing forward. Breathe. Fear is so stupid. If I fail I will learn, it scares me still. I'm not trying to be perfect. I want to be good - really good at what I do. Just writing this made me feel so much better. Releasing that tension somehow. saying it. Letting go. I can do this.